ZEN Bitchin'

Dispatches from a foreign country

Category: la familia

What your soul sings

Like most things in my life, my coming out to my parents about 13 years ago did not happen in one spectacular event that shook the world. Being an only child, friends expected only the highest of dramas. However, there was no heart-rending drama: no tears, hysterics, or some other violent reaction to my disclosure. [...]

Inside of me

My maternal grandmother, Victoria Mendoza Protacio, was born this day in 1925. Had she been alive, today she would have been 85 years old. Unfortunately, less than a month after she turned 80, we lost her to cancer. They always say that grandparents and grandchildren have a special bond, that it almost borders on being [...]

Oh father

June 20 was Father’s day. When I woke up I quickly sent to my mother in Manila a greeting, via SMS, to be relayed to my father. He does not own a mobile phone, hence that method of message delivery. I wonder, though, even if he had a mobile phone, would I have been able [...]

I love u but I don’t trust u anymore

Trust is like a glass window pane, once it is broken, you can mend it in many ways but it will never be the same. I am speaking from experience. In my younger days I have done many things that have broken my parents’ trust. I spent the later years trying to make up for [...]