ZEN Bitchin'

Dispatches from a foreign country

Month: December, 2009

Last Christmas

Although the title of the post suggests a reminiscing of sorts, I will not do it simply because last year this was exactly what I was doing: thinking about last Christmas. My Christmas eve tonight will be a busy one; the house will be the venue of our Christmas party. This means I will make [...]

Be happy

Perhaps the most perplexing thing about whatever-the-hell-I’m-going-through-right-now is my inability to write about the whole experience. This is something I used to do with ease, since I was young. Whenever I felt troubled, disturbed, and confused, writing has always been a refuge, a sanctuary. When I was grieving–the passing of a loved one, or the [...]

Happy

I have very few reasons to smile and laugh these days. I won’t give the morbid and grisly details because people are put off by other people’s misery, this I know clearly now. It is not true that misery loves company. People, especially those whom you feel very close to, tend to drift away in [...]

Autumn leaves

About two weeks ago the winds suddenly blew cold in Phnom Penh. Nights began feeling too cold for me to use the a/c in my room. This happened for about a week before becoming balmy and dry like a summer night again. The trees in the small yard facing my building began losing their leaves [...]